heart is heavy

My heart is heavy today. I had a classmate of mine at college die last week. It was a freak accident, a drowning. He got caught in a tide at dusk and no one could save him. We were unlikely friends due to me being old enough to be his mom, just about, as he was only 23.

A lot of us at the school went to the funeral yesterday and it was a celebration of life but it was really sad too. I can't help question why someone has to go so young. He just finished college, got his first radiology job and now this. I can't understand but I know there is no understanding why good people have to leave this earth too soon. I guess I can take comfort in that he was a christian man and he helped youth and had a strong belief in God. And, by the showing in the room he touched a lot of people's lives in his short life. He was such a uplifting, positive and funny person to be around. He will be missed!!

I can't help but feel down about this as it also brings back memories of losing my best friend as well as family. Why does it have to be so hard for those left behind? Of course, we will all die someday as is the natural course of life and we just keep plugging along. Hopefully, there is an afterlife, I like to believe there is. Where this is no pain and only loving.

Anyway, just feeling melancholy today. I need to get my butt in gear and go to the library. I'm still studying for my big test for my radiology license at the end of the month. I have been procrastinating too much so I'm off to the library to concentrate cause at home I find a million other things to do and interupted all the time.

I'm still taking guitar lessons but it's going slow as I don't seem that focused on that either. It is fun to think someday I can actually play a song I like. The weight loss is still going and down -15 but haven't progressed much past that. Probably having to do with me not going to the gym as much. I also need to write down everything I eat for those ww points values and quit doing it in my head as that's not accurate and I'm prob. eating more calories/points that I think.

I hope you are all doing well out in blogland and I'll visit later when I get a chance!!!!!