they say it's your birthday

They say it's your birthday, da da da da da da, happy birthday to you!!!! Yep it's the big day. As I get older I used to think, 'yuck another birthday, I'm getting so old'!!! But now, after losing people to cancer last year, I'm like 'yeah! I get another birthday'!!! It is a gift, this life we get to live. It is really hard at times but we wouldn't change the chance to live it for anything.

I had a nice day out yesterday going to the play in Seattle. It was called 'Mame' and then we went to dinner at the top of the Hilton and could see out above the high rises and space needle and out to the bay. We were concentrating on talking to each other and had a nice steak dinner and it was a nice time with my mom, sister, my friend Kathy and another lady. It was nice as I asked my friend Kathy to come as my other sis couldn't make it. This is the friend that I haven't seen since the Danskin triathalon. The one where we we hit a rough patch and wrote letters to each other, hard letters about feelings about life and each other. But, in the end we are still friends as we've known each other since birth just about!!! We were neighbors and played together as babies and prob. took baths together. ha! We don't see each other very often but we still have affection for one another and want the best for each of us.

Today I got a breakfast made for me by hubby and soon here I do have to go study at the library as school won't quit for bdays. I have to learn more about the stomach and esophagus and of course, physics. This is mid terms and the stress is mounting. Good thing is that I finished my paper yesterday on the icky barium enema and it just needs a few tweaks for friday. I have to get a few more things for my speech I need to do on it like an overhead or drawing. I can't draw worth a crap so I think I'll do some transparencies on the overhead. I'll use the enema tip to simulate how you put it in the buns! I hope people aren't laughing. I have to talk for 10 minutes. I can do this! I hope I don't freeze up.

I did a short meme in the post below so check it out and I tagged a few of you. In the wt loss arena, I'm still staying the same though I ate healthy last week I think the big dinner last night did me in. I am going to start going to wt watchers again. I know, I know....some don't like the program but I have to do something to get losing again as I want to be thinner by December for a vacation I'm taking then. And of course, the most important thing is that I want to be healthier!!! The points system can get old but I may try the core program where you eat the healthy items they suggest and there is no exact portion control. Just eat how much too make you satisfied. A new concept, I hope it works for me.

I hope you are having great week and talk to ya soon!

Here's a funny old photo of us back in our scuba days...loving life....living for the chance to dive....in the caribbean with the fish....ha...I look a little uncomfortable and starting to float up! This made an excellent xmas card that year.

Got tagged

This is a meme that I got tagged with from Last Pick, Trixie at http://lastpick.blogspot.com/ who has done so wonderful with her weight loss!! I wish I could do the same. I'll keep plugging along.

Here it is......

1. Do you like blue cheese? yeah, it's ok on salad
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? No!
3. Do you own a gun? No
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? Never been to Sonic ( I don't think we have those up here in Wash.)
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Oh yeah. Not sure why. My blood pressure always is up right when I get there. Think it has something to do with them going to poke around on me and I don't like it!!!
6. What do you think of hot dogs? I like em
7. Favorite Christmas movie? I like all the old cartoons like Rudolph and frosty still, ha! I do like 'It's a wonderful life' with Stewart too.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Usually just drinking flavored water but once in a while I like my nonfat vanilla latte's
9. Can you do push ups? I can do a few but girly ones, ha!
10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? Probably my wedding band or my platinum/diamond round necklace.
11. Favorite hobby? Used to be scuba diving! But, now it's just getting enough sleep!
12. Do you have A.D.D.? Nope.
13. What's one trait you hate about yourself? I second guess myself sometimes. I need to go with my gut feelings. They are usually right.
14. Middle name? Ann
15. Name 3 thoughts. I wish my school wasn't so long. I need to be making some money not interning for free!!! Oh god, another birthday here soon.....egads.
16. Name 3 things you bought today. Starbucks mocha lt. frappicino, a sandwich, toy for a gift.
17. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink. Diet Pepsi, bottled water, occasional latte.
18. Current worry? Money.
19. Current hate right now? People always wanting something of me....people thinking only of themselves.
20. Favorite place to be? Underwater looking at the fish. In bed sleeping. With my family having fun.
21. How did you bring in the New Year? With my husband watching tv in bed
22. Name three people who will complete this? I don't know....maybe wannab or diet coke rocks?
23. Do you own slippers? Yes!
24. What shirt are you wearing? blue V-neck shirt
25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Sure
26. Can you whistle? yep
27. Favorite color? Blue! and black for clothes.
28. Would you be a pirate? sure, just pretending that is. Maybe if I could get close to Johnny Depp. ha. They actually weren't so nice and don't think I actually could.
29. What songs do you sing in the shower? I don't know, I guess some top 20 stuff
30. Favorite girl's name? Maybe Sierra.
31. Favorite boy's name? chase, my boy! ha.
32. What's in your pocket right now? Nothing.
33. Last person that made you laugh? My hubby
34. Best bed sheets as a child? Quilt with all sorts of animals on it
35. Worst injury you've ever had? Not much, just broke a finger and hurt my back another time. Having a baby, now that was the worst, ha!!!
36. Do you love where you live? No, but it's ok for now
37. How many TVs do you have in your house? 2
38. Who is your loudest friend? I don't know. Maybe Kim or Kathy.
39. How many dogs do you have? None
40. Does someone have a crush on you? don't think so.
41. What kind of cereal would you be? Hmmmmm. goofy question. Maybe Chocolate cocoa puffs. I don't know.
42. What is your favorite book(s)? Haven't had much time for reading these days as it's all school books. Love, Eat, Pray was ok. Used to like romances and now just real life kind of stories and old classics of course.
43. What is your favorite candy? I like twix, caramello.....any caramel.
44. Favorite Sports Team? I guess the Seahawks. I'm not into sports much though.
45. What song do you want played at your funeral? Ugggh, not something I want to think about. Not sure.
46. What were you doing 12 AM last night? sleeping
47. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? Got up, did some online banking, got my son ready for school and me too.

Ok, it's finally done......I'm going to tag WannaB, Diet Coke Rocks and Rolypolyman/spider/ironman (not sure which one he is going by!)

I will talk about my dieting attempts next time.....!!!

Feeling a bit down

Think it's the new meds that are making me feel down. My mood swings a lot too. That is not how I usually am. Just last week at work when I was talking to my advisor/teacher that visits me at the clinic, I was crying. Just not like me. I hate it. She was a bit pissy that day and directed it at me but it was just minor. It was just a bad day I guess.

Maybe I'll get my doc to switch to a different heart medicine cause it works to lower blood pressure but I'm moody though I try to control it. My hubby doesn't like it that's for sure.

Well the good thing is that we have President's day today so me and my son are going to find something fun to do. I'm still in the process of writing my paper and it's taking me a lot longer than I thought it would. I can't seem to concentrate on it!!

My sister wanted to have some fun this weekend and she talked my mom into us all meeting at a hotel near Seattle that had a pool. The kids had fun and swam a lot. I think my sister just wanted a break as none of the adults got in the pool. How could we with like 30-35 kids in a small pool! I didn't want to anyway as I'm not wanting to get into my swimsuit right now. ha. We may go to the gym today/the Y it's called and my son will play some baskeball. He's a little small for the hoops but sometimes they lower them a bit. It will give us something to do. We try raquetball but he gets bored after 5 minutes. Maybe some day I'll get a decent game. We'll walk around the indoor track unless it's nice today we will get to the park and walk. It's still cold though but yesterday was around 50 F so that was balmy for this time of year.

We made our plans to visit San Francisco in June for my hubby's 'escape from Alcatraz' race. We are looking forward to that. His family may come to see it or just to visit as they only live about an hour and 1/2 from there so he will like that.

As far as my office politics that I was talking about I won't go into it much I was just upset at the time. One of the ladies was giving me advice (not my teacher there) and then after that talking negative about the others. I decided to keep quiet as there is already some tension there between her and the others. She will not be able to convert me to her side, that's for sure! She seems like the gossip/ and backstabber type to me. I am neutral, that's good advice you all gave. I'm just there for a year and then on to a hospital the second year and I want to 'be like the duck'. What I mean is everything will run off my back just like water. Ha! Easier said than done but I can do it.

Let me know how you are all doing on your healthy living this week! I'm didn't eat out too much this week and will strive to eat at home most of this week and pack my lunches!

(I'm farting around with my header up top....obviously I don't know how to make a good one. I don't know how to make caption along with a picture. Any ideas? Or is it hard? This is me back in my scuba diving days.....I miss those days and all the sun and fun!)

A new day and thoughts swirling in my head...

It's a better day today. I hate how I get so stressed and down with all I have going on. But if I wait it out things get better. School and work combined is really stressing me out I guess.

My mom has been watching my son for 2 days so I had time to start my big paper/project and now today I will study for 2 more tests tomorrow while my hubby picks him up. It's nice to have grandparents that can do this once in a blue moon and make it a little easier. I know everyone doesn't have this option and I'm thankful for it.

My hubby and I went out to the movie 'Fool's Gold' that has Kate Hudson and Matthew McCaughney in it. It was pretty good and they seem to be good together but I got a little tired of people trying to kill them all the time as they were searching for treasure. We were in the theater and the fire alarm goes off and everyone goes out and right before we went out the door we all heard it was ok and to go back in. It happened right at the beginning of the film but at least we got to see the rest of the film. I was just thinking if we had to get out of here in a hurry it would be impossible with the theater packed. There were so many people next time I think we will just rent dvd's, it seems much more enjoyable than wall to wall people. Other than that we just layed around the house and I did a little homework. It is nice to take a day out and not do too much. We seem to never get days like that.

The eating/dieting hasn't been too bad. I'm not really making any progress but I'm still not gaining so that's a plus. I guess that all I can do right now and that's ok. I wish you all luck on your healthy living. Some of you are really making strides and a good incentive for me when I get my mojo back and start losing again.

Also about being healthy/getting thinner:

Ya know, I was sitting next to a smoker recently and this older lady lit up and just starting choking and hacking and then would take a puff on her cigarette. I was thinking 'why doesn't she just quit smoking and she won't choke like that, she wasn't choking before lighting up'. Then, I thought about it. We all have bad habits of some kind. Why is her bad habit unlike my bad habit of being chubby and not having the best relationship with food at times. Why is that any different than me not getting to a healthy weight and the emotional eating that I do at times. I go around and look at some of the wt loss blogs and some are all about this new diet or this way of eating that will work this time. Then it is off the program and gaining and back on the next best thing or the next best diet or plan. We all want the golden prize of getting thin and more importantly being healthy and feeling good about our bodies. Sometimes I feel like it's all a load of bulls*it they are feeing us in the media. I was trying to think what ever worked for me to lose weight. Sure wt watchers for a while but after that just exercising a lot made me want to make the healthy choices. I actually forgot about choosing the bad foods most days and wanted healthy food to give me energy. I was in the zone last spring/summer. The flip was switched. I was losing, though slowly, I was training for a race. I see some out there in blogland really making progress and the universal key to all of them is consistent exercise. Not a few months and stop, it is every week. So that's what I will concentrate on this week. Just get in some exercise and the rest will follow is my motto!! I want to be in that zone again and I will! I can't wait for spring and that will mean more time outdoor to workout and not all this rain. Ok, can't get away from the rain up her in Washington but it will be warmer soon.

In other news, I have a work thing that is bothering me. Already some office politics and I hate it. I am trying to stay out the fray as I'm just an intern. Maybe I'll write about that next time. Hope you all are having good weekends!!!

Been busy

I haven't had time to post or maybe haven't had much to say. Other than I am stressed!

Do you ever get so stressed to the point you just want to have a good cry? This school and work is driving me crazy. Especially the school as the work is never done and they test us constantly. This isn't med school, jeeeez! I find myself dreaming of some day far away when I can vacation and get away from it all and just lay by a beach. I know some day that day will come but for now the hard work is what I have to do.

I guess I just get down when I don't have time for friends or even some of my family, I just can't do it all. Ok, just feeling frustrated tonight. It will be better after my physics test tomorrow and I can take a mini breather before Thursday.

Also I get down about our tight, tight finances as of late. It's just another stresser. Sorry I'm a downer tonight. Probably cause I'm studying for the test tomorrow and physics sucks or maybe it's just boring to me and I'm tired and not feeling right.

I haven't been around the blogs much but I will when I get time. This weekend will be more fun with writing my paper and studying for tests. I need something to look forward too but what??!!

Oh, yeah forgot to mention that I've been having tummy cramps for 3 days (food poisoning or other?) and I went to doctor last week for my annual check up and she started me on my first ever blood pressure medicine! And she said 'by the way you have a bladder infection so here's some other meds!'
Yuck. One more incentive to get my weight down and see if it lowers my blood pressure as it's been creeping up slowly. She said I could try to go off it if I lose some weight. Of course, it may be hereditary too as my mom is thin and trim but has high blood pressure matter what. I hope that's not the case for me. I think the meds give you side affects as I've been feeling hot and sweaty and other aches and pains. Mild, but odd. Give me your opinion if you have been any meds such as these. Did you have side effects? Did you change medicine to get the right one?
Ok, I'm feeling officially old now!!! Ok, I'll quit my bitchin now. Things will be better soon.

How are you all doing if you are still out there reading?? Hope you are well!