Saturday, February 24, 2007

sick to my stomach.....about triathalon, about cancer

No, not sick anymore with a cold or flu but just signed up for the Seattle Danskin Womens' triathalon in August. I feel sick with like butterflies in my stomach and wonder if I can do this! All I need to do is swim, bike and run. Seems doable, doesn't it? I can do these things separately, well maybe not run all the way yet but I haven't combined more that 2 of these different activities yet. I know if I can't do it all, I can walk in the run, that should be my focus at the moment. I've invited a few of my friends and have 2 takers so far so I'm excited about that. You really do the race by yourself at your own pace but it would be fun to see my friends at the beginning and end, or maybe start the race together as we will be in the same age group.

One of my main reasons for doing this is to raise money for breast cancer research as this is near and dear to me. My best girlfriend, Dawn, has been fighting the fight against breast cancer for a few years now. It's so hard on her but she is a strong woman but it's not going away. She got this disease at a pretty early age, in her 30's. Something has to be done to find the cure! I'm just a little emotional about it right now as I just talked to her recently (she lives in a diff. state) and she is going through her 3rd round of chemo in the past few years and she is so tired all the time. I just get so worried that I might lose her someday. This is the kind of friend I don't want to lose, the kind you can talk to about anything, the kind that has your back, the kind that keeps your secrets and you keep hers and never will divulge to anyone, the kind that helps you when your marriage gets rocky and you help her when hers is on the brink of divorce, the kind that will be there for you no matter what. Those kind of friends are hard to find. We went to high school together but got really close after high school when we lived together for a while. I just don't know what I can do for her but be supportive as much as I can from the distance/miles between us like I have been. But, on somedays, when I hear her talk, I feel I'm not doing enough for her. I also am going for a visit at the end of March for our annual trip to vegas and will see her then as she lives there so really looking forward to that.

Anyway, on the eating/diet front, it isn't going that well this week due to birthday celebrations for 2 days and just eating out too much and too much chocolate. Yikes. I need to get my butt into gear to start really training for this and drop a good amount of weight by August. My knee has been aching since I started up jogging again so I have to ease off of that for a while, but, I'm not letting up on the exercising. The elliptical machine is still ok and the walking isn't too bad. I hope everyone is having a good week!!


Terri said...

Cancer sucks!

Even hearing the word brings tears and so much anger.

Cancer is what took my moms life and she was only 56 years old.

It is really sad. My mother had always wanted to see her life through to her 70s. She said it would be a blessing if she past 70s but she wanted to live long.

My mother was a 20 year survivor from that mess and the second time around the cancer took her life. To make matters worse I had to watch that evil disease wreck havoc and stole her life.

She was the one I trust and a true friend. I wished I had another 10 or 15 years to get to enjoy her company and talk to her. Her death pretty much flipped my world upside down and changed my life.

I only hope and pray that cancer skips me.

This is one disease they really need to find a cure for.

Anonymous said...

Being sick to your stomach shows that you have humility and THAT will lead to your success. Being humble will help you strive to train and allow you to just do the best you can do. I think it is great that you are running/swimming/jumping off of the Space Needle (heh) for such a worthy cause.

Lori said...

I'm so proud of you and impressed with your commitment to your friend. She sounds like my best friend and I would do anything to help her. You're really awesome to do that.

You will be in the race somehow, whether you run, swim, bike, walk, or whatever. Take care of your knee and be good to yourself.

Chris H said...

Entering is the first step, getting fitter is the second step, but the most important step is .... stop eating chocolate! lol

BigAssBelle said...

i'm so sorry to hear about your friend. cancer is still one of the scariest things in the world to me. i hope that this 3d round kicks it in the ass.

i don't know about you, but i think i actually need a brain transplant. i need the brain of someone who lives and breathes fitness and healthy eating, who's wholly disciplined and absolutely committed and who never has a weak moment or a day in which they question the purpose of all of this.

know anyone like that? i do a few, but i find they're not willing to swap brains. they actually recoil in horror, though most would like a little more spontaneity in their lives. more spontaneity = less discipline, though. i am spontaneous all over the place and thus pretty undisciplined. practice, practice, practice.

thinking of you and your friend.

Wanna_B_slim said...

You have enough drive thru your best friend to make this tri enjoyable... You will kik arse..
Caner is terrible and yes I dont know many people that it hasnt touched in some form...either thru themselves or family..
Bin the chocolate and get back on track and take care of that knee...
Hugs Nannette

TrixieBelden said...

My eyes got misty reading your post. My sister was diagnosed with breast cancer 5 years ago. She was lucky, I can't believe I'm saying that, but after her mastectomy she's been cancer free. I am so lucky to have her and couldn't imagine life without her. I think what you are doing is wonderful! I also think it is great that you are blogging about it. The more people who know will get tested and hopefully it will be caught early. You reminded me that I really need to get my mammogram. I haven't had one in over a year. I'm long over due.

You are going to do great in your triathalon. I think it is wonderful you have friends who are going to train and do it too. There's power and strength in numbers!