Thursday, March 15, 2007

ever get into a funk?

Do you ever get into a funk? You know that time of the month rolls around and you cry at the drop of a hat? You hate your life, your body, your choices. Usually it just last for a day or so but it's been 3 days of feeling like crap. Let's see, I cried at the library on Tuesday just from seeing a cute little innocent girl giving me the cutest look and then at the book store as I was reading a book about changing my life by changing my mind or how I think and getting more in touch with God. It wouldn't hurt for me to get to church and quit thinking of my woes. Two days with no exercise but I forced myself to go today and I did feel a little better after I worked up a sweat.


I was thinking of my friend who has depression and she takes some meds, (not prozac) to feel happy. I've always fought getting on meds as I hate to take medicine. Especially since she says she has no libido from being on the meds and just doesn't want to get intimate with the husband. I don't need something dampening what libido I do have. I think I just have the SAD (seasonal effect disorder) cause when I get some nice weather in the Spring or when I just went to California my mood does a 180. I've been trying to take an honest stock of my life and see that it really isn't so bad. Yeah, we have debt, but I have a great family of sisters and parents and a nice hubby and a son. I have my health and I'm improving it. I have friends though I don't see them often due to moving more south 6 years ago. Anyway, a list of what I'm grateful for does help some so I try to do it from time to time.


I am starting the tri training and doing hour or more of cardio 4 times a week and starting up biking and swimming and jogging again. I'm doing the baby steps to where I need to be. I need to check out tri training web sites but haven't felt like it. My friend, Kathy, who is doing the tri with me wants us to sign up for a biking or swimming seminar/training thing in Seattle. I think we will do the swimming one as we get to swim in the lake where the tri will be held and get some tips on improving our swimming technique.


I'm looking forward to my Vegas trip at the end of the month. I hope the weather is good, it should be. Not the best place to be going when I'm trying not to spend a lot but my mom is taking me and my sisters so that's nice. It will be nice to be with just the ladies and no responsibilities to deal with. What I'm really looking forward to is seeing my friend, Dawn, and seeing how she is holding up w/ the chemo. It's always good to see her as we can talk about anything without thinking 'what are they thinking about me' that I feel with some other friends. She's the kind of friend where you can be yourself and always feel better after talking to her. I hope I do the same for her.


Thanks to my blogger buddies for stopping by and giving advice on the money issue or just sharing about your $ woes, it helps! I just got the Secret dvd for my sister for her bday and I heard my mother in law is sending it to us. Has anyone read the Secret book or watched the dvd? What did you think? It sound like you just need to think and stay positive and positive things will happen for you. Then we will be happy, ha. I know there is probably something to that but sometimes it's easy to read but hard to put into practice. Hope everyone is having a good week!!!

11 comments:

christie said...

It might actually be a good thing going to Vegas when you don't have money to spend,it will keep you reasonable so you don't waste too much... and who knows maybe you'll get lucky! :)

I am the same way with the weather. Today was a grey gloomy day which is rare here in Denver, but it had me feeling very lethargic and depressed!!! The sun finally came out in the very late afternoon and immediately it lifted my spirits!

So proud of you getting started with tri training. I hope it all goes really well for you!

Terri said...

Yep I get into a few funks.

I hate funks.

I am sunny day person. I hate drizzle. I know we need it and I just bare with it and think god for it but sometimes it last to long. I need my sun.

What is it about when spring comes near it makes a person sleepy!

Kim said...

I hope that your funk is short lived. You are making steps in the right direction for sure, and soon you will feel the benefits of it.

Good luck with the tri training. I would love to accomplish something like that, but the idea of doing it scares me to death! Can't wait to hear what you think of it as you prepare!!!

Flo said...

Vegas will be fun!! I haven't read or seen The Secret but I did see the Oprah show on it. There's a lot of truth in it. You do attract the type of energy you put out. Did you ever know someone who constantly had drama in their life. That's the energy they put out so that's what they get. It can't work miracles but the mind is a powerful tool and positive thoughts use that tool in a positive way. Good luck

Chris H said...

WE all have shitty moods, and I have just come out of one that lasted a few days too. As you said, thinking positive thoughts does not always make you feel positive, sometimes it just pays to have a wallow in shittyness and get it over with! We are human afterall. Have a wonderful weekend.

Megan said...

I'm a horrible person to be around when the weather is funky. Good thing I live in SoCal so I can actually interact with people!

I hope you're able to come out of your funk. I'm sending you sunshine from California. Hope it helps!

Wanna_B_slim said...

Oh I know what you are talking about...
i hate crappy weather and pain... so when there is either... look out...
and if there is both on the same day... dont even look at me...
Things will get better... Studying sucks financially..
But think of the future... We all manage somehow.. financially it is hard..i am a single mum with two small part time jobs.. and have to go looking for more work as my littlest turns 7 this year...
soooooooo I am in a shitty position financially also.. and jobs are hard to find here...

BigAssBelle said...

i hate funks too. have been in one this week because of the !#$@#$#$% time change. it always sets me back emotionally, keeps me dragging through the days until i adjust. the older i get the harder adjustment becomes.

i haven't checked in with you in a while, have had my asshat on :-) so don't know what your money woes are. i'll keep reading. keep your chin up, sweetie. everything passes, good and bad. hoping you have a good time in vegas. hugz, lynette

San said...

funks are far more common than you think. it's easy to just go with the sadness and let yourself be down. i have been there myself.

it is usually that time of the month for me.

funny you should mention church we've been wanting to go back for ages but want to find a really good Priest, so we feel connected to the church again. in the meantime i pray and that sort of thing.

it's funny but my sister was telling me how she prays for God to give her the strength to lose weight and i think, holy crap, what a waste of a prayer. you can do that on your own or with the help of a gym or support group. i pray for other things, far more significant to me than the way i look. that's just me though.

i hope you have a great trip to Vegas...

Rebecca said...

FUNKS SUCK.

I have them a couple of days before FLO comes to town. I can be a total mess. This is my week = ( I was a basket case at the hospital with mom. I wanted to cry, but was trying to be strong for her and for my own benefit.

My god you're active. I'm lucky to contemplate the treadmil for 30 minutes.

Living to Feel Good said...

We all have our funks. You'll get out of it. I just read your previous post about your money woes. I don't know if you remember me talking about mine in Jan. It's such a stressful thing. My problem was/is that I was a stupid spender as a kid and just RACKED up credit card debt. It's killing me! Now that I am older and wanting to have a kid, it just makes it worse. I am managing right now, but it doesn't make it any less stressful.
I too haven't been sleeping, but I don't know why. I don't feel stressed out, but I have been wide a wake until 2-3am for over a month now. I try to go to bed early, but I just lay there. I take Tylenol pm, but just lay there, so I feel for you on not being able to sleep. I'm in the same boat.
So I hope you have fun in Vegas. I've been dying to go..weather should be good. AND there are TONS of free stuff/things to do in Vegas. You will have so much fun, and really you don't need a lot of dough to have fun. Last time I went I only had 40 bucks to spare and I came home with 300, which I put on a credit card. It felt good to go on vacation and earn money to pay off debt! :D