Wednesday, September 19, 2007

weigh in and more sad news and concerns for me


Sorry I'm such a sad sack at the moment! Believe you me, I would rather be postive and upbeat like I usually am but I can't at the moment. (or in the past month it seems)

First of all, the weight in for today is a still at 203. I think I will just try to maintain at this point as that's all I feel I can do at this stage. I'm not giving up on the weight loss, just postponing it a bit.

My sad news is that my uncle died last night. We knew it was coming but I find myself breaking out in tears today. I'm tired of all this dying it is starting to wear on me.

Another thing that is happening that I didn't mention before is that since the end of August I've been having some chest and left arm pain. I chocked it up to just a sore muscle after the triathlon or perhaps from weight training so I have been ignoring it. But this past week I've been having a irregular heart beat. Kind of like the heart skips a beat so that is real unusual for me. So, to be on the safe side I decided to go see the doctor today before my school really gets so busy next week. I had a EKG and that seemed fine but my blood pressure was up but I think it had to do with being emotional today and a little nervous. Because of my symptoms of some minor chest pain and some a few weeks ago when I went running she ordered more tests. So, I will have the blood work to check the cholesterol, kidney function, etc. tomorrow and get a chest x-ray. Also in about 2 weeks I will get one of these stress tests done where they hook you up like the bionic woman or something. Of course, I didn't feel my heart doing the abnormal thing today but I did last night. Isn't that just the way it is? You have symptoms and then they stop at the doctors. I still have the mild pressure in the chest though. So I asked, could all this emotional stress I have been under cause these symptoms? She said maybe but that she didn't think so. I'm not sure. I just want to be safe and not sorry. We have no heart disease in my family, it's the cancer that kills our clan. So wish me luck that this will all end up being nothing!!

So that is one reason that I will just try to maintain as my mind/heart and everything isn't into the weight loss. I will keep blogging though, ok? I like to see how all of you are doing too. For good things to look forward to I have a play to go to in Seattle on Saturday and so will see my sisters and mom. The next weekend will be a 'life celebration' for my uncle so that will be really emotional. I am trying to do a 'what I am thankful for list' to try to keep things in perspective.

I'm busy starting my reading for radiology and getting some other things ready but it's funny just as I'm about to learn to xray in our mock lab at school, I'll get my own xray. Not the best of days today but I'm still functioning! My cars front brakes are out so I'm getting that fixed today but not looking forward to the bill. I'm just Ms. Negative today aren't I? That positive thinking is just not working for me right now.

I hope all of you out in blogland are doing well on your own healthy living journeys. And, thanks for checking up on me...I appreciate it.


Spidey said...

Exercise helps with the weight. Exercise helps lower stress. Exercise is good for the cardiovascular. Exercise is the key. Go out and run, etc., and you will feel better (but ask the doctor first).

I am sorry to read of your uncle. Condolences. Sometimes when it rains it pours.

jodi said...

i'm so sorry to hear about your uncle and know your life has been pretty difficult lately... sometimes the worst news means that something better is just around the corner... i'm sure your results will come back fine, could be stress, who knows... i'm a firm believer at getting something checked-out and agree - the symptoms are never as bad when you get to the doctors...

congrats on the maintain, that's great! :o)

Kim said...

Please take care of yourself!! I am so glad to hear that you are following up and getting these tests done.

I am so sorry to hear about your Uncle, especially on the heels of losing Dawn. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Christine said...

Thinking of you girl - no one needs this stress right now. Sorry about your uncle - that's tough and I am sure that you are running low on tears these days.

Hugs to you..

Please take care of yourself and please continue to blog. If anything we need to know that you are okay. :)

B said...

Jeez honey, you really have had a rough trot lately haven't you? I'm so sorry about your Uncle. You're doing well to maintain your weight right now. Hope everything goes okay with the tests, maybe it's just your body saying 'slow down' for a little while. Hope things get better soon. Big hugs ()

Marshmallow said...

Oh gosh Patty, that was not the news that you wanted at any time, never mind when you're still dealing with your friend's death - and those health concerns have me extremely worried for you. PLEASE look after yourself! I totally agree with b and the pain being your body's way of telling you to slow down. {{{BIG HUGZ}}}

Tully said...

I am so sorry to hear your sad news. Big hugs to you and your family.

I hope you're feeling better soon and your tests all come back positive.

I can totally understand why losing weight isn't your priority right now, you just need to take care of yourself and try to get through all of this.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I know that life just seems to be piling it on you right now and I hope that this is just the dark right before the light breaks. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

celtic_girl said...

Very sorry to hear about your Uncle, even though it was expected it is still very upsetting. My sympathy to you and your family.
I had a similar thing with the chest pains,mine turned out to be just stress, but you must get it checked out. I remember having the stress test and I even didn't make it for the length of the test, that's how unfit I was.

Look after yourself, I will be thinking of you

Amanda said...

Sorry to hear about your uncle and about your health too... there are times in life when it can get all a bit too much... just take time for yourself... try not to stress or worry too much and make sure you take very good care of yourself. I hope things look up for you in a little while... I will be thinking of you and wondering how you are going. Hang in there! HUGS to you. Amanda xox

TrixieBelden said...

I'm so sorry about your uncle. My thoughts are with you and your family.

And I hope everything turns out okay with your tests. I think it sounds like stress, but it is great that you are being proactive and getting yourself checked out.

I definitely think you should keep blogging, regardless of what you decide to do with your weight loss. I'd miss you if you didn't and I also think it's a healthy way to express yourself.

Take care and keep us posted!

Lady Rose said...

Maintaining for awhile sounds like a fine a plan - be gentle with yourself. Take the time you need to be well and heal emotionally too.

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers

Meow Meow said...

I understand about the brakes aspecy. As I was home (new Orleans ) last weekend, mine damn near went to the floor board, and well..I eneded up needing new pads, which were repllaced in a matter of 4 hours before I drove back to Georgia. I was fortunate to have a credit card and a mechanic who knew what he was doing!

Hope you are feeling better and have accomplished all that you set out to do !

celtic_girl said...

Re your question on my blog.

My pain was in my chest and radiated to my shoulder. I had it for a couple of months and still get it occasionally.