No weight change

Nope, no weight change this week. Exactly the same. I have been yo-yoing up and down a pound or 2 all week. And it's the t.o.m., so I'm bloated so I usually retain water. We'll see if I can hold my wt steady until next week as Vegas will be challenging. I have a tendency to drink and eat too much there. I'm hoping it will be different this time as I will counteract with a lot of working out and walking. That's the plan anyway.

I am working out a few times a week but will try to be consistant with 4-5 times a week. Today I was feeling negative about some crap in my life and just one of those days when things aren't going your way and I took it out through exercise. Did some jogging and was surprised to see my heart rate jump from 125 bpm all the way up to 155-165 bpm. So, I slowed down some. No use punishing myself. But I feel I need to push myself to be able to be in the right condition for this triathalon. Maybe I'm pushing too much though and it was hard and I was beet red, I felt good after an hour of cardio and 1/2 hr. of some weight lifting. My knees are a little dodgy as I tried squats and lunges so think I need to watch that when I do jogging too. Maybe I'm stressing them too much.

I started reading that book I was talking about 'You can heal your life' by Louise Hay. So far, I've liked some things and other things I thought were hokey or maybe too new-agey. Here's one part I kinda liked:

"Overweight is another good example of how we can waste a lot of energy trying to correct a problem that is not the real problem. People often spend years and years fighting fat and are still overweight. They blame all their problems on being overweight. The excess weight is only an outer effect of a deep inner problem. To me, it is always fear and a need for protection. When we feel frightened or insecure or "not good enough", many of us will put on extra weight for protection."

"To spend our time berating ourselves for being too heavy, to feel guilty about every bite of food we eat, to do all the numbers we do on ourselves when we gain weight, is just a waste of time. Twenty years later we can still be in the same situation because we have not even begun to deal with the real problem. All that we have done is to make ourselves more frightened and insecure, and then we need more weight for protection."

She goes on to say that she doesn't focus on weight or diets, just dieting from the negative thoughts. She explains to people that say they are too fat that they don't love themselves. She says that when we love and approve of ourselves, that it's amazing that the weight just disappears from our bodies.

I guess I agree to some point but I don't think that we don't love ourselves. I know that a lot of overweight people have issues, I being one of them. But to say you really don't love yourself might be going to far. There is a lot of other stuff about thinking positive (reminds my of The Secret) and that we can control our minds, what we think. The hokey parts to me, so far, are not really the affirmation and statements you make to yourself about 'willing to change' into a mirror but that you should touch the center of yourself which is your throat. I'm like, 'whatttttttt??' So, maybe I'll get some stuff from this book that I will apply to treating/getting rid of this fat and other things I'll not use.

Ok, gotta go, this got a lot longer than I thought! I need to pack stuff for my son to take on his trip to go see his Grandpa. Freedom is around the corner! I have a day out in Seattle planned to just do my own thing and going to get in a lot of walking tomorrow. Get to see the girlfriends to walk at dinner time too. yeah!

Hope you are all having a good week. Are you reading any inspirational books?