Monday, August 21, 2006

progress continuing...and other issues coming up

Down another 2.2, so that brings it to 30 lbs lost! yeah!!! happy dance! I feel I can beat this thing, this fat! But on the flip side, starting to get thinner is bringing up other issues in my life, like self esteem, how I feel about my career change, my relationship with dear hubby and friends. There is a lot linked to weight loss, a lot of feelings that go a lot deeper than just the weight. It will make it difficult to get to goal and deal with painful things in my past (nothing earth shattering) but things about myself that I'm not proud of, like my penchant for spending money when I'm depressed. But, this is also a good thing to do some self reflection and get on with my life and quit being negative about myself while putting on a happy, outward front. Change is good, I'm telling myself, and I'm realizing about things I've given up, such as hobbies, ambition, interests when I became a mother and felt like I my child needed me more than I needed to take care of my needs. I've realized that I need to take care of some of my needs first in order to be a better mom, wife, friend, daughter....this is an ongoing process as it's hard!


Lily T said...

When the airplane's crashing, you put the oxygen mask on yourself first. Remember that. Take care of yourself or you won't be able to take care of the kid.

Congrats on the lost!

angelfish24 said...

Know what your mean. No danger in not being able to take care of the kid, I'm not that far gone. Just in general, me and several other of my mommy friends have given up things we enjoy due to time contraints and doing things with and for our child to allow them to flourish and grow and learn. No one said being a mommy or daddy was easy but there must be a balance and that I'm still working on. Be kind to yourself, is one I'm working on now.

Marshmallow said...

Heya Patty, could you email me at regarding wanting to put a ticker in your template? (You probably don't want it on your profile, you'll be wanting it to actually display in your blog). I'll explain to you what you need to do via email, that way your comments aren't flooded with HTML instructions :-)

BigAssBelle said...

you speak the truth, girlfriend, but the good news is that i can't work on stuff that's not there, so being "out of the food" allows me to deal with whatever is driving me. that's a good thing. it's kind of like starting a pendulum on a clock swinging . . . it swings wildly to the right and the left, then gentles down and starts a good and simple tick tock in the center.

you sound good !!! yea for you!! lynette