Monday, August 21, 2006
progress continuing...and other issues coming up
Down another 2.2, so that brings it to 30 lbs lost! yeah!!! happy dance! I feel I can beat this thing, this fat! But on the flip side, starting to get thinner is bringing up other issues in my life, like self esteem, how I feel about my career change, my relationship with dear hubby and friends. There is a lot linked to weight loss, a lot of feelings that go a lot deeper than just the weight. It will make it difficult to get to goal and deal with painful things in my past (nothing earth shattering) but things about myself that I'm not proud of, like my penchant for spending money when I'm depressed. But, this is also a good thing to do some self reflection and get on with my life and quit being negative about myself while putting on a happy, outward front. Change is good, I'm telling myself, and I'm realizing about things I've given up, such as hobbies, ambition, interests when I became a mother and felt like I my child needed me more than I needed to take care of my needs. I've realized that I need to take care of some of my needs first in order to be a better mom, wife, friend, daughter....this is an ongoing process as it's hard!