been down the last few days

Not really sure why but have been in down in the dumps lately. It prob. started when I got this chest cold and now time of month and the hormonal thing going and these nasty headaches lately. I wasn't sleeping well all week, cause coughing up all this junk and that makes me cranky and down too. It's not like me to be like this for a few days. I purposely went to the gym and worked out hard to try to get that endorphin high and it seemed to somewhat work. Also, been craving chocolate and other bad stuff and that's not like me either. Just had a little and was thinking, come on don't blow it now that your getting close to wonderland (under 200) in a few months. Don't do this again. So I am not. I'm not giving up and not letting a little lapse turn into a full fledged pity party and go back to my old ways. I don't want to go back. I'm finally feeling better overall lately and going down in pants size and feeling better physically. I'm not letting fear or depression or negative thoughts or whatever it is derail me this time. I like feeling good about eating healthy and working out. Finally doing something good for myself after years of abuse with food and especially fast food. It has to end, this previous fasination w/ Mcd's and all the others. That movie, 'supersize me', really showed me what I already knew. Fast food is bad for you and it's addicting. Anyway, just writing out my thoughts and feeling better tonight and will try for a good weekend even though it will be a challenging one w/ family and food everywhere. Just need to get back in the groove again....