Friday, August 24, 2007

Up in the middle of the night

I haven't been sleeping well. Has a lot to do with my friend Dawn and my impending visit to see her on Monday. Also, has to do with my boy being sick with the tummy flu or something. It sucks as he has a bday party on Saturday all planned and hope he can make his own party, we'll see.

So as long as I'm up, might as well blog. It seems my friend 'vet' is trying to talk me out of going to see Dawn. She's like 'you sure you don't want to remember her as she was' and 'it will be really hard'. It pisses me off. I know it will be hard, Dawn is really sick. But, she isn't out of it, she is just in a bed. She is still talking and asking me to be there. So, I will damn well be there. It think it is 'vet's' way of trying to appease her guilt of not going. Or maybe it's jealousy that Dawn and I have gotten close when she and Dawn were close in high school. I don't know but I'm sick of it. I don't think she needs to go. She said she will go to the funeral and already is planning what she will say. I don't look that far ahead. I will take things as they come. What is important is that Dawn is surrounded with people who love her. And she is. Her family is there but will leave soon. Her dad surprised her and will come down on Monday the same day as I will. That is good news! I didn't think he would come as his wife has alzheimers and needs a lot of care. So, I will be getting to know her dad more that's for sure.

Her friend, Deanna, has kept me abreast on what is happening with Dawn as I can't get the whole picture from talking with her a few minutes a day. It seems all that she can do, this is not the time for long conversations. She said maybe I should help Dawn with getting her photo albums in order. I noticed she was doing that to leave them for her daughter. She has them all sorted by subject/envelope. And she has tons of photos! So that would be a good thing for me to help her with or maybe just do for her. Vet says get photo boxes instead of the albums. But, I know she already purchased a bunch of albums. I'm a real procrastinator when it comes to my own photos. I have some in albums but the old stuff is all over the place. I will be busy today trying to find old photos of me and Dawn and friends that I can share with her and with her daughter.

Thanks for you kind comments! I know my blog isn't that fun of late but this is what I'm dealing with in my life at the moment and it helps to blog about it!

I'm getting anxious for my school/college to start next month and my son will go back to school in September too. So, lots of changes will be happening. Also, we are going to Oregon in September (down by the gorge) which is the big river that separates Washington and Oregon. My hubby has a tri race near Hood River so that will be fun to go watch him. He will be doing some of this as well as running and swimming:

But I would like to be doing some of this (windsurfing) which is big in this area. I'm not a windsurfer but briefly tried it once long ago. Last time I was in this city with my mom (she was busy at a friends wedding) me and my son tooled around the city and thought it was very quaint and very pretty by the Columbia river. I saw people taking winsurfing lessons and I was like....'I want to do that!' But I had wee son with me (he was 2 or 3 at the time) and didn't have the time. I don't know if I'll have time this time either but we'll see. I always wanted to try it when I lived in Maui long ago but seemed so busy in scuba and working so didn't do it. Bah! Oh well. There are still alot of thing left on my list that I want to do. Skydiving being one of them too!

Has anyone tried windsurfing? Is it as hard as it looks? I only tried it on a calm lake one time. This river can get the big waves. I will talk to you all later and have a great weekend!


Meow Meow said...

You are much more of a risk taker than I am...Compared to me and my remote control and occasional concert.

I feel ya on the sleeping part and lack there of....I have been thinking about asking my doctor for somthing to help me sleep. Sorry that you are feeling a bit pissed off with people. They have really been pissing me off as well!

Christie said...

Hun, you have a heart of gold. Your friend who doesn't think you should go see Dawn, in my opinion, she is not a very good friend to you or to Dawn. What you're doing yes it will be hard but being the one dying sure is harder, and you will certainly be helping her to get through it.
Helping her with her photo albums would be a lovely thing to do. Ian's grandma wants so badly to get her scrapbooks done before she passes. It becomes a very important thing at that time so they can feel like they are leaving a story behind for their loved ones.

I think you're doing great :)

Marshmallow said...

I agree with Christie's point of your friend not being a very good friend by telling you to not go and visit Dawn. I think that Dawn will want you there with her, and will want all of the people she cares about to be near her.

I hope your boy gets better soon, that doesn't sound like it wuold make things easier :-(

Thinking of you {{{HUGZ}}}

Christie said...

Woman!! That comment you left me almost brought tears :) Thank you it was really really sweet. I honestly felt that stinging feeling behind my eyes.

I am so glad we are blog friends and that we can keep up on each others' lives and support each other. You are definitely one woman in the blogosphere that I hope to have the pleasure of meeting in person one day!

Christie said...

PS I'm running a poll on my blog to choose Starbucks clothes so come on over and help me choose!

TrixieBelden said...

you are a very good friend. spending time with her and doing things for her now is the best gift you can give her.

"The Captain" said...

Just for the record I didn't post that idiotic comment.

B said...

I'm sorry to hear about Dawn. It will be hard for you, but you need to be there for her. I will be thinking of you and sending positive vibes. I think it's a great idea to help with her photos. You are a great friend. Take care, Bri