Sunday, June 24, 2007

Don't do what I always did before

What is the saying? Do as you always do, and you will get what you always got. Or something like that. What I mean is, why have all these years have I yo yo'ed up and down in weight? One time I got down to 170lbs with wt watchers but eventually after my goal of a vacation, I starting slowly ballooning back up, little by little.
I think it is a tendency to do the same thing again and again. First, usually I would join wt watchers and then diet like crazy. I would stick to the program totally and just about perfectly and lose pretty rapidly or at least pretty steadily. Then at some point I would go off the diet say 7 or 8 months later and eat too much one day. Then it's was every week I would eat too much. I would have all the food that wanted but hadn't been eating. Then the yo-yo syndrome, up then down and then up again on the scales. All the while probably messing up my metabolism even worse than just if I kept at the same weight. So some things that I've learned:

1) Don't be totally gung ho on a diet without having some foods I really enjoy, be they hi calorie every once in a while
2) practice moderation not perfection
3) keep up with the exercise matter what, if I miss a week I get right back to it
4) forgive myself for a relapse and then continue on with my healthy journey to be at a more healthy weight and fitness level
5) Don't ignore it when the scale starts moving up continuously. Take action and don't wallow in pity about how I can never get to my goal weight
6) there really is not getting to a goal and then going back to my habits that keep me heavy, I have to change for good if I really want this - to be at that healthy weight
7) Stay positive, don't go to the dark is not the way for me. The force is strong with me. ha ha. (my son is watching star wars at the moment)
8) find ways to work on my self esteem that have nothing to do with weight loss. Learn a new skill, take a class, be a better person, be kinder, be more compassionate, be more understanding
9) stand up for myself when I am hurt. Deal with my feelings, don't turn to food!

Anyway, just some of what is going on in my head. I want this to be the last time I have to take off a significant amount of weight. It would be heaven to make it to goal and not have my wt fluctuate more than 5 pounds. This yo yo-ing of weight in the past is exhausting and has to stop!

In other news, I have decided to take down all my personal/relationship posts. Due to personal reasons. Due to thinking about it to much. Due to feeling to open and raw. Due to family that may want to read it. The people who saw the comments and commented, thank you, thank you. A lot of what you said really resonated with me and helped to see I am not a crazy lady just that I'm a normal woman who is sensitive and deserve to be treated right. So thanks for that.

I pulled my back yesterday when I was lifting a bike on my bike rack. I didn't use my legs to lift so now I am paying the price. I will slow down some this week due to the pain but I'm sure I can still get in my walking every day but maybe not the running or biking. Oh well, that's life.

My hubby did really well in his 1/2 ironman and decreased his time by over an hour from last year's triathalon. Thankfully, we have a little break in the tri's for now but he will have a big bike race up a mountain next month. He really enjoys his athletic endeavors so I support him in that as he will support me in my new career path.

I hope everyone has a good start to their week. I am still on track and had a pretty good weekend, eating wise even with the birthday lunch with my sister.


Wanna_B_slim said...

Totally understand about pulling your more personal posts...
Hope you are doin ok...
Oh by the way... you've been tagged... hehe...
and I want to see it done...

Living to Feel Good said...

That's a great list of things learned. I think part of the problem (at least for me) is once we get to a good weight, and we are feeling good about how we look and feel, it's so easy to get side tracked. One thing on your list that I always try to remember myself is that this is a lifestyle change. I'm not going to do this till I get to goal, and then eat all the crap only to start over. It is very hard to un-program though ain't it?

Have a good week!!

Christine said...

Sounds like you had a bit of an ah-ha moment with this blog. :) Some great insights to making it happen. You can do it. And great idea about the whole not letting it get more than 5 pounds outta hand. Thanks for sharing - and about the personal enteries, I understand as well. You really opened yourself up on those ones - I am just happy for you that you could get thoughts from bloggerland. Take care.

Spidey said...

Glad that you got something positive from them. Hope you can get all the issues sorted out.

"The Captain" said...

Sorry about the trolls jumping onto your ship. I really doubt they are as fit and trim as they claim to be. Most people who look great at the gym are always nice and willing to give advice. Usually the fit and trim people will give you more advice and encouragement than you even want.

I am making an effort to leave the darkside behind me. I think you are making a good choice not to follow it.

Rebecca said...

I understand the personal aspects.

I hope your back will mend quickly!

You seem so level headed and REAL when it comes to what you expect from your weight loss aspect.

Kim said...

It sounds like you have learned so much, and are really ready to put the yo-yoing behind you. I know that you can make the changes that you want. There's no stopping you now! :)

christie said...

I loved your list. I have deduced those same things over the years, but have so much problem putting those things into practice for the long haul!!

I understand taking down the more personal posts. Glad we could help a little while we could. And you can ALWAYS feel free to email me if you want to talk about something personal, too.

Hope you feel better, straining muscles is never fun :(