Friday, June 01, 2007
I'm my own worst enemy
You would think exercising 5 to 6 times a week that I'm doing now, the weight would just be falling off but no! When I first upped my exercise, I saw a 2 lb. gain! I know, I know, it may be water weight or from wt lifting, not sure. And last weekend, I wasn't too good on the food when I was at my dad's cabin. My mom is a bit of a food pusher and I have trouble resisting. I need to learn new skills in dealing with her. It's kind of like, 'here's this good, fattening food I made for you, I love you, please eat it or it will make me sad'. I know she's really not saying that but she is continually worrying that everyone get fed and full. Of course, she is just a little thing. Isn't that the way it goes?
What everyone doing out there for exercise this week? I'm doing biking, walking, jogging (a little), swimming and yoga and weights. I think I'm tired! I took up yoga again yesterday and I can feel it a little today. It was a faster yoga than the usual slower paced one. I have this cool teacher, Sunny, and she is new agey but a real sweatheart. Every year in January she goes down to Costa Rica to teach for a month or so and yesterday she was trying to recruit other ladies to come down for a retreat/yoga thing. Rent a house by the beach. Go surfing, do yoga, swim, do one of those rope sliding or whatcha call it where you are like tarzan through the trees!! Oh man, I want to go so bad. But, it isn't meant to be as if I get into this school in the fall it will mean limited breaks like all colleges.
I think what I'm missing is an adventure. Sure vegas sounds fun but it's not an adventure. It is an urban jungle. I want the real jungle. Or a really cool island getaway. My hubby wants to hike and camp the north end of Kauai in Hawaii. It looks awesome so it may be an option some day. I want to go to the Turks and Caicos islands just south of the bahamas. It has awesome beaches and great scuba diving. Just thinking of dream destinations....and of course I'd like Italy, Greece, etc. I don't want much do I?
I'm still having trouble sleeping and am depressed about my friend Dawn. I can't really come to peace that cancer will take her life early. She seems at peace and I will find out when I visit with her. I'm sure she has her down days, who wouldn't when you have limited time on this earth. My uncle is struggling with cancer too and doesn't look to good. I hate cancer. I want a cure. Will they ever find it? I think it's at the dna level and how to turn off that thing that pushes or activates your cancer cells to develop and just take over.
Anyway, anyone have any weekend plans? We may go hiking at this place called Twin Falls or go by Snoqualmie falls http://http://www.snoqualmiefalls.com/. You can hike to the bottom of it. They also have that town, that's called Fall City or Snoqualmie where they filmed the tv show "twin peaks". They do have beautiful mountains beyond the city there called Mt. Si. I will take pictures if I go up that way.
Have a wonderful weekend and be healthy.